Welcome Home

It has been exactly twelve days since I've left the noisy streets of Manila and i didN't  really imagine  myself going back to the province and be uncertain of how long will i stay here. For three years,  I have spent most of the holidays and vacation time working and staying in Manila.  I have been so used  to live independently being away from friends and my family way back home.

There's some sort of madness and sense of fulfillment on living on your own. perhaps,  those people who also came from the province and were living by themselves can really relate to what I am talking about. Living independently is like freedom for people like me. Its like having given a privilege to think only of  yourself(but not in a selfish way of thinking), enjoying your own money you worked hard for, splurge it to many things you like and being worry proof about everything that stresses you when you are at home. 

For three years, I have been a "scavenger" with no permanent address because I moved out from one place to another because of not having a regular work. I live nearby where my work is. i live alone without those familiar restrictions my family give when I am home.

But of course, there were times when you felt like lonely too, especially when you were sick. There was no one to take care of you, but only yourself. I burst into tears when I am sick. There were times when you are alone and being alone makes you more alone and that you wanted someone will take care of you because you were not capable of doing anything because you were sick. Spending the holidays on your own can be crazy too.

Now, I will surely miss those times when I do things on my own. but for now, I guess leaving Manila was the best choice. Resigning from work where i earn meager wage was good choice too. The time i have spent working in that company was bittersweet. I've found friends but in the end I need to think about my future too. I knew that not leaving will cost me a lot- my future. The one thing i must say hard for me to leave was my involvement in the church ministry. I've worked hard to be part of the music team but then for some personal reasons i guess it was not the right time to be back there. For some point, God revealed many things to me and so, though hard for my part gave up being in the band.


Deciding to go home was like halo-halo. I've got mixed emotions that i need to balance to choose a good decision. a decision i will never regret. And now here I am, in the place where I was cradled dear-fully. I  still remember the faces  of my family when I arrived from the first night,  All were happy. All were in awe and excited.

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GOING BACK HOME:




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